Happy New Year
Nothing like trying to shove a year’s worth of goals into 2 days. But then again, I have ADHD, I shouldn’t be surprised. We LOVE to wait until the last minute to do things because deadline pressure gives us the adrenaline boost we need to overcome our neurotransmitter shortages. I couldn’t really tell you why I’ve been on a productivity tear since last night around 8 p.m., though. All the creative projects I’ve wanted to do all year that felt too hard just started coming easily. I took that Nikon SLR photography class again from Udemy, and took notes this time so when I forget I have something to look back at vs. continuing to retake the course over and over. I restarted this website, and updated the focus to neurodiversity. I signed up for a wholesale account on Bella + Canvas and put an assortment of hoodie and sweatshirt blanks in my cart (just waiting for the $ transfer from my personal checking to my business checking to land.) I re-upped my memberships to InDesign and Photoshop and mocked up a few Joy designs that will eventually be heat-pressed onto the fleece blanks. I double-checked that the domain names for Ladybird and The Joy Hoodie were still live. I ordered some Pantone and CMYK color guides for the art I’m going to make for the wall downstairs in the office-turned-den. Let’s see…what else? Oh yeah, renewed my business license and didn’t show up to work today. And this is all since 8 p.m. last night. Hmm… I wonder if bi-polar is a common comorbidity or AD(H)D and / or autism? Or maybe my H is just extra hyper today. I’m not complaining, but the autistic over-analyzer in me is whining “but why?” Who knows, I feel moved to do it is why, and don’t have a whole lot of desire to do something I’m not being moved to do. That’s it, the reason is simple - because I wanted to. Because I always want to, but usually can’t because I have work and / or parenting and / or hanging out with my partner and / or cleaning, etc. etc. etc. But all that’s off the table. My son is at his dad’s for the week because it’s his half of winter break. I spent Saturday cleaning the house so now on Monday I can just enjoy it. My partner is at work for the day. And when I logged onto work this morning and saw that most people were still OOO, my plans to grind through client strategy decks didn’t seem that important. Before my coach knew I was ADHD, before I knew I was ADHD, she thought I should start one thing at a time, and finish one thing at a time. Give all my energy to that. But it’s BORING. I like always having something in the “start” phase because it gives me the energy and motivation to plug away at the things that have moved onto to the tedious “do” phase. My challenge to myself in 2025 will be to keep up the “tedious do” with writing, with neurodivergent coaching and with The Joy Hoodie.
